Sitting on my sofa, having a relaxed Monday morning I contemplate my lifestyle; whilst it feels like the rest of the world heads off to work.
In March I remember writing a post called Hello Happiness where I wrote openly about my decision to quit the 9-5, gave some advice for people wanting to do the same and, shared some personal opinions on my ‘career’ so far.
Whilst writing I remember feeling a bit fearful to share my feelings regarding office work and why it wasn’t for me, because I was still thinking maybe, I might go back one day. Sometimes, I still see myself falling back into an office job again, and wonder whether one day it might suit my lifestyle better if/when I have a family. But, after meeting up with a close friend and old work colleague my opinion might have shifted, at least for now.
She was trying to encourage me and in a positive way, suggest that I might want to return to my old job in a different department, as there is a current vacancy I could apply for. At the time, I was pretty interested and had spoken previously with my partner about wanting to go back if they’d have me. However, it wasn’t until a few days after that I began realizing that it would be a mistake and I would be taking a big step backwards.
Self care is the most important thing and my life is so calm, slow, peaceful now.
I work 3 or 4 days a week and have more than enough free time to live my life the way I want to. Before, I was consumed by work. I would constantly shop for work clothes, come home feeling stressed every day, wishing my life away and praying for the weekend.
Now, my life doesn’t exist within the confines of 9-5 and it’s the best. I don’t share the same weekends with everyone else because my routine is changing constantly. I feel that the job I’m doing is important and I’m not ashamed to say that I left working at a Law firm to become a Dementia Care Assistant anymore.
The job isn’t always glamorous but, there’s never a dull moment and I couldn’t think of a better use of my time. It’s in my nature to love and look after, so I’m staying put.
I might see my friends less because of the conflicting work hours but, I see my partner and family more, which means so much to me. I also have a lot of time to myself to write, cook, decorate my new home and enjoy my own company.
The most important thing to mention is that, my mental health has improved so much since saying goodbye to the unnecessary pressure I felt whilst working in a busy office. I’ve always had anxiety and still feel it sometimes but, it’s much more manageable now thanks to discovering a slower way to live.
I’m officially living my best life.
I’m the most confident and comfortable I’ve probably ever felt in my own skin.
I’m untroubled and am able to make the most of everyday.
I don’t go to sleep feeling worried and wanting to phone in sick anymore. I sleep so soooo well and, although I have no idea where my career is going long term, I’m enjoying life right now and that’s the most important thing.