If 2018 has taught me anything it’s that, every year has significance and changes who I am moving forward.
During 2017 I thought I was put together, had made it as an adult and truly knew what I wanted in life but somehow, towards the latter half my perspective changed, started to crumble and that all led me to where I am now.
I entered 2018 not knowing who I wanted to be or where I wanted my career to go but, Cake & Coast was just forming and I was certainly excited for my future. Despite the fact that I was also leaving my job to start something completely new and scary…
Something in me just knew I needed change.
I needed to test myself and I needed more than my current desk job.
Thankfully, leaving was profoundly the best decision I’ve probably ever made because, going from an office job to working in Dementia Care with highly different demands and priorities meant that I truly learnt my worth, my strength and my ability. I’ve learnt about what my priorities are and just how big my heart is for those around me.
I feel as though, my approach to life has changed entirely and I can confidently say that I’m much softer and kinder towards everything, including myself.
Outside of working life, 2018 has taught me to r e l a x too and in new more positive ways, like reading, writing and cooking.
There have also been some serious worries this year all revolving around managing my household finances, as I was shifting jobs and my boyfriend was too. But, I’m starting to learn that money isn’t everything. I can worry, plan and worry some more but nothing’s going to change in doing that. So, I may as well just let it all wash over me and try not to stress.
Whilst juggling finances and worrying about my relationship I also learnt that a change of scenery is healthy too.
My old flat was lovely but there was no room to grow anymore. We’d completely maxed out any empty space and me and my partner began to bicker. So, we scrambled what little money we had together and moved. And, just like that, overnight, we became a happy and in love couple once again.
What I’m trying to say is that... sometimes our homes become so full and our minds become so restless that we forget about the one(s) we love and have to find a way to clear that mess, to start over and declutter. Personally, I think it’s a perfectly healthy thing to do.
I’ve also learnt so much from my mother this year. Having the opportunity to work alongside her whilst she carries out both nurse and managerial roles has made me appreciate her so much more than I did already. From speaking with my/her colleagues I’ve discovered just how loved she is, which is something I never doubted but, hearing such kind words from others makes me feel so proud to be her daughter.
Overall, 2017 felt about loss in every sense of the word and this year, I think I’ve been discovering or rediscovering who I am, who the people in my life really are and why they mean so much to me. I’ve connected with old friends again, found new levels of respect for my loved ones and learnt tremendous amounts about who I am as an individual.
Moving forward, I can’t wait to continue focusing on my goals; to keep writing and developing this blog, to look after and develop relationships, to expand my culinary dictionary, and all hopefully whilst continuing to sustain a somewhat peaceful lifestyle.
And, although I’m still somewhat unsure of where my career is going, I’m happy and look forward to making more positive changes during 2019.