Have I Made the Most of My Time?

For just under a year now I’ve had a lot of time to myself, choosing to work only 3 days a week. With the other half of my time I’ve been meeting my mum for coffee, spending lots of time alone and only meeting my friends about once or twice a month.

I’ve been calling my alone time ‘self care’ but have I really been looking after myself and have there really been any benefits?

I’m not entirely sure.

I think I was lying to myself a little bit.

This time last year I was at a real low with my job and needed a break so, reducing my hours and trying something new was necessary. But, after a couple of months I’d recovered from the trauma that was my last 9-5 job and continued spending a lot of time home alone with no attempt to do anything else but sit on the sofa.

I love my own company and that’s okay but, sometimes I think I got carried away and maybe a little selfish.

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There have been many productive days spent alone but there might have been more real lazy days if I’m honest with myself. Days where getting out of bed was difficult, days where I didn’t get dressed, eat breakfast or do anything productive at all.

Some of those down days I needed but it’s unhealthy to choose to be anti social too and I can’t blame it all on mental health, when I actually feel the best I have in years!

What I’m trying to say is that, I could have made an attempt to read the pile of books that are  currently sat on my bedside table eagerly waiting for me. I could have worked out and rummaged through my wardrobe to find my yoga mat. I could have made more cakes and perfected my love of baking. I could have gone on more solo day trips and I could have explored my hometown more.

Instead, I took a lot of bubble baths, ate a lot of oven pizzas for lunch, took lots of afternoon naps, ordered a lot of food online, avoided meeting up with friends and spent a lot of hours binge watching Netflix.

The plus side is that I finished watching Friends (twice over), Shameless US, The Good Wife, Mad Men, Making of a Murderer and The Staircase to name a few. I also found a love for Apple Music and made numerous playlists for every mood.

I’ve had the best and worst time in my own company I think it’s safe to say. I feel like I’ve achieved a lot but also nothing at all or, at least, nothing of significance and that’s what’s frustrating.

My year of  ‘me’ days comes to an end now though and it’s time to return to the 9-5 life, which I’m equally excited and nervous about.

I’m back to sharing weekends with my boyfriend and being on the same schedule as him which is something I look forward to. We’ll hopefully be able to go on lots of days trips and weekends away which we’ve really missed out on last year. We already have a couple things planned through March and April, hopefully going away for our 3 year anniversary and attending a wedding in Kent too.

I’m also greatly looking forward to being home more during the evenings, being able to cook dinner at a normal time and chill out with my no1 without falling asleep in his lap.

So goodbye to enjoying solitude too frequently, with the option to do anything in the world yet, choosing to do nothing at all and, hello to appreciating my weekends again.

6 thoughts on “Have I Made the Most of My Time?

  1. I enjoy being in my own company, but I realized exactly what you’re talking about too. A few months ago, despite living with my friends and my boyfriend, would isolate myself in my room and barely make time for anyone. I agree that this can definitely be a good thing, like I NEED my alone time, but only in moderation. Too much isolation and laziness turns me into someone I’m not proud of. I’m finally back to myself though (only the occasional lazy days) and I’m glad you’re back too!

    1. I’m so pleased you can relate. I’m a total introvert so I’m all for spending time alone and encourage people to do so but, you have to understand when it starts to become an unhealthy habit too. Being social isn’t something to be afraid of and I was starting to get to the point where I would actively avoid social interactions (not everyday but sometimes). Everything in moderation as you say!

      Kate x

  2. It is always good to have some time alone. Sometimes, we just need some time away from work and that’s totally fine. I can totally relate to you about those down days. It’s good to have a balance where you’re not having too much of either side. Hope you’ll enjoy your 9-5 life again! Sending you positive vibes!

    Nancy ♥ exquisitely.me

    1. Most definitely. I think it’s healthy to enjoy your own company but, sometimes I think I get a little carried away with that motion and use it as an excuse to be anti social (or at least I had done in the past).

      I’ve just finished my first two days starting an office job and I’m loving it so far. I have lots to learn but having my own desk is very exciting.

      Kate xx

  3. I can totally relate to this. I’m an introvert too and like spending time alone, but too much isn’t good for me as I get easily depressed. I also feel like I should always be doing something productive, like writing or cleaning the house, and if I let myself do nothing or don’t get much done in a day I feel like I’ve wasted the day – it’s a constant battle with myself between wanting to relax and wanting to be productive at the same time. I’m not really sure where I’m going with this comment so I’ll stop now and just wish you luck in your new job!

    Nicola
    http://nicshealthylife.co.uk

  4. I’m so pleased that you’ve taken the time you needed for self care. I often find that I’m the type of person that enjoys my own company and there is nothing wrong with that, it’s therapeutic even!

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